Thursday, July 2, 2009

Daddy's heart is hurting after today

First of all, Caydence is doing well today. She gained more weight today and she ate 17 ml for Jenny at her first feeding. And when I arrived at her second feeding she was awake with two of the most beautiful eyes that I've ever seen. I can't explain how those eyes just make me melt. But it's here that the day took a bad turn for me. The nurse made daddy put the feeding tube in this afternoon.

That was one of the most difficult things I've ever had to do. The look on her face while I tried to get that tube to go into her nose just ripped me apart on the inside. For her to go from this bright eyed little baby to crying and tears was tough. But I did get it in and I know that she needs this feeding tube to survive, not that this makes it any easier to see my daughter cry.

But when the tube was all said and done, I was able to feed and hold Caydence which is nice and she slept away the time with me. She's so cute while she sleeps; to be quite honest I think she's cute pretty much all the time,(although, I may have a small biased opinion on the subject). Anyway, she's doing well, even after my eventful start to the feeding. Thanks for reading and stay tuned for the next update.



millie said...

Welcome to parenthood, Josh.

dj said...

Just reading that made me cry!! Hang in there Josh, you and Jenny are doing great.

Grinder said...

Seems Tough Love Lesson #1 occured and both survived.